Real Life

Lately, Things have been going great. Family life is great, Landons been doing great, Jake's doing great, everything is just at an all time high for us. And then BOOM. He has to leave for FEX. Our whole world gets turned upside down. The most horrific thing happened to Landon. And I know it was just an accident. And that it could happen to anyone. But why me??! Why my kid? Why do i constantly feel if someone see's what happens or finds out what happened, that I should be embaressed or ashamed??? When when it comes down to it, it truely was a huge accident, and yes it could of been prevented, I could of gotten to him quicker, but those things didn't happen. Yes, Landon is okay. Thank goodness. I'm so blessed and so thankful. I'm so glad that i've had so much support since Jake has been gone, without that support this pass 2 weeks would of been complete hell.
In a way I feel as though i've lost a best friend, and in return found a new one. I shouldn't compare, but having such a close friend there always in my life, always there to call, is such an amazing feeling. My other friend, I never here from her, nor does she return any calls or texts, maybe thats the way she is, i'm not sure. But I love my new bestfriend, she was there when everything happened with Landon, and she really kept me calm, and really assured me he was ok, and it wasn't my fault, and accidents happen.
I've come to notice, that I've been speaking my mind a lot more lately. And Its great. It's so nice to be myself and say what I'm thinking. If you don't like it, I'm sorry I'm really not here to please you, or anyone else for that matter. I'm here to please myself, my husband, my son, and my family. Of course I'm not going to be a bitch but still I will speak my mind. I'm tired of friends of convienance. I'm here for more than just a question or to borrow something. I'm here to talk to, to vent to, to bitch to, to joke with, and whatever else comes along with being friends. I'm a great friend!!!

The Sun Shines For My Lil One

My pride and joy, We bought him a sand box this weekend and the sun finally came out so he could play in it!! it was such a joy to watch him light up and have so much fun in the sand. I love him so much!