TWO days TWO long.

Well I finally heard from my hubby!! And I gotta say it was amazing!!! I know I hadn't heard from him for only 2 days!! But it was hard because he is in the same place as a bunch of my friends, and they were hearing from their husband 3-4 times daily! And I hadn't for TWO Days lol. But my turn came and I got to talk to him for almost 2 hrs while I was cleaning up the kitchen. It was amazing to see Landon and him interact. Landon loves his daddy so much and was smiling from ear to ear!! It had me in tears. Unfortunetly I don't know when the next time I'll hear from him! Which completely SUCKS! But welcome to the deployment life yet again! I did not miss it thats for sure.

I'm currently packing up and cleaning this house we are in. And it's been hell! Not to mention Landon's sick now. And won't stop screaming!! And this seriously is the LAST thing I need. Poor thing. I probably will end up sick. So please, please,please, not let me get this cold or whatever is going on with him. I'm just wanting to leave this horrid place. And be with my family. Landon will be so much happier down there, and honestly soo will I.

And this is just the beginning of this deployment, I hope it only gets easier!

Deployment is here yet AGAIN :(

So the dreaded day has finally come, and the love my life is gone again for another 8-10 months!!! I knew it was coming and I expected to feel this way!!! But it still is just has hard as ever. I thought with each deployment that went by, the goodbyes would get easier and the time wouldnt be so bad apart. BUT I was wrong. They are just has hard, in fact they get even more hard. This one was especially hard cause he is deploying to Afghanistan. And I am currently 16 weeks pregnant, with an almost 2 yr old. Each deployment more and more elements get put into this equation. I'm so proud of my husband and couldn't of asked for a better man!! I'm sure i'll have my ups and downs!! Well, thats a given cause its everyday life. But i feel confidant in the friends I have and I know I have the support I deserve. No more drama, No more nothing. Just amazing people who are going to support me in my time of need, good or bad, and they have an amazing friend in me, who will return the favor in their time of need, good or bad. I'm thankful for my family. They are going to be my rock while he's gone. And my support during this pregnancy. And i know at the end of the day I'm going to kick this deployments ass!!

Pacifier Trouble....

So lately we have been trying super hard to get Landon to stop taking his Binki. Unfortunetly, we can't break him from it, especially at nap time and bed time. The good thing is he doesn't have it everyday all day, and its been like that for 5 months or so, but we CAN NOT for the life of us get him to NOT cry for hours on end for his binki. I feel guilty because I think its my fault for not breaking it from him sooner, and like maybe we wouldnt be going through this if I had just done the job right and never given him the binki at all. Then a part of me is like, well if he is only taking it at night it can't be that bad to give it to him? But, we have Logan on the way, and I dont want Landon to still have a Binki with Logan here, especially if Logan takes to a binki. Part of me doesn't even want to give Logan the Binki, unless its a MUST like it was with Landon. I feel like its because of me he is suffering, and I wish I knew how to get this binki delima out of the way and to where we wont have to sit here and have to hear him cry for hours!!

Any advice?

Your shit stinks... :D

This is probably gonna be mean, but at this point I DONT CARE! Why are girls out here so damn judgemental?? It's like you guys get together, and the Ring leader says "lets delete Amanda V" and everyone of you jumps on the band wagon and says like Ok i will too, you guys dont know me, and obviously didnt care to know me, and i really could give TWO shits.

You guys are a little shit talking group from highschool!! Seriously, didnt most of us graduate from highschool YEARS ago? And Seriously aren't most of you MOMS!! you guys need to grow up and stop thinking your the shit, cause REALITY is YOUR SHIT STINKS JUST AS BAD AS MINE! And i guess not all of us can be as FAKE as you are!

You think it hurts me, you think i CARE! But i don't im sitting here laughing at how pathetic and immature ALL of you are! And i am thanking god daily that you deleted me cause obviously you guys arent the people i thought you out to be!! And trust me I had all good thoughts of you all, and you all proved to me who you really are!! So i hope all of you feel better about your lame ass self when you talk shit about other people!! Real CLASSY!!!

I love all of my close friends, and i thank god for you all the time. you guys are amazing, and defend the true meaning of friendship! I'm glad you guys are in my life everyday. And couldn't even imagine how it'd be without you all in it!! Im looking forward to supporting you all, and having you all support me in this upcoming journey we are facing, or have faced.

We found out on Saturday we are having a baby boy and we are totally over the moon about this. We are gonna name him Logan Thomas!! He is due Jan 6th 2011! I'm excited to meet him, and i hope time goes by that way my husband is soon back in my arms... I am so happy in my life, and glad to say its everything and more than what i ever expected it to be!!

Deployment #3 Around the Corner!

With Deployment 3 just around the corner, everythings becoming so real! We are currently packing up our house, and moving it into storage. And I do not miss packing! But we have had lots of help and it's made it much more fun! We are finding out what our little nugget is next weekend!! Well hopefully! I'll only be 15 weeks. And I'm hoping baby isn't too stubborn! If it is, the place said we can go and eat some lunch and drink some drinks lol, and maybe by then the baby may have moved and we could have better luck! Also, Landon is 20 months old now! Wow how the time flies, he is getting so big and so smart. He is continuing to amaze me every single day that goes by, he is amazing. I love watching Jake with him. Jake adores him! And I know he is truely going to miss his daddy! We are going to record tons of videos of Jake reading to Landon, and talking to Landon. Going to take loads of pictures of Jake and then of Jake and Landon together! Hopefully this deployment will go by quick. I'm sure it will with all the things i'll have going on in my life! I'm just ready for it to come and be over with!! Positive thoughts ALL the way!!