Deja Vu- Your Dead To Me!

It feels like I've been here before, writing about the same person and the same exact problem. I sometimes wish things could go back to normal. Back to how it was before she met him. The girl I loved, and considered my best friend in the entire world. Now we hate eachother. Well more of she hates me. And I've told her that she's dead to me, Landon, & Jake. It's sad when I think about it coming to this. I remember sitting on my driveway with my sweet and innocent cousin who adored me and wanted nothing but to hang out with me and be a part of my life. Now she hates my life. Thinks I regret having Landon and told me I would never love him completely because I got married to young. Well More or less said I RUSHED into getting married I RUSHED into having a baby. And now my life sucks and I will sooner or later hate my life. I don't believe anyone of it. I find it amusing how someone who is only 17 years old, could possibly know what my life is like, and how I feel. Considering we hadn't talked in almost a year up until a few weeks ago. Last year when I was in labor she told me I deserved whatever was to happen to me and to my son. But yes, me I forgave her once again! But this time she's said enough. Talked badly about me, my husband my dad, my mom, my wonderful grandparents. What an ungrateful bitch. I hope 10 years from now she realizes what a huge mistake she made by doing this to me and my family. But by then it will be too late to mend anything between her and I. Like I said she's dead to me. I don't have a cousin anymore, and I don't have a little sister anymore it hurts, but I can't keep getting hurt. This is the best for Landon, Jake, and myself. And those are the people I really have to always protect. You can fuck with me. But you better not think you can fuck with my family. Fuck with them you better know you're gonna fuck with me. Enough said. I'm at peace with my life now!!!