Smoker's Remorse

The day finally came! My worst nightmare. My husband starting smoking again! I don't mind. I'm not a hater. I've seen a lot of people die get cancer, and being wheeled around in a chair with an oxygen tank in their nose along with a cig in their mouth. When I think of Jake smoking, i picture him in those chairs, with the cig in his mouth, and my heart breaking! All in all i'm scared for him, i don't want anything happening to him. He is my true love, my soul mate. And the way i am, the way i think, i will seriously worry every single day until we died that he's going to come home from the DR's and tell me he has cancer, and they can't help him. I want him to be around for my son. Maybe i'm being a little over worrisome. BUT why put your self in harms way?! Especially when you have a beautiful wife, and such an amazing son who adores you?! Why would you put yourself in harms way!! Not saying that if you some your getting cancer and you will die. Those are MY experiences and those are the memories Ill never forget. Those will die with me. And i dont want to add my husband to those memories. Not to mention, my dad, my mom, my uncles, my aunts, my younger brother, pretty much all smoke!! And everytime they do, it breaks my heart, cause i dont want anything happening to them, I love them so much! And its so hard to watch them smoke these little cancer sticks. Yes, I said it, CANCER sticks! Anyways, i hope this is just temporary and he's not going to make this a life long habit! It will break my heart. Again i dont look down on people who smoke, i don't hate smokers. I just think MY hubby shouldnt smoke!